Bringer of Joy!!
Sometimes someone else remembers what you had quietly forgotten.
📖"Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy."
🕯️ It's late on Saturday night. The house has gone quiet, and I keep coming back to the words a friend left beneath a Facebook post today.
"Patrizia Schwartz bringer of joy!!"
He wrote them in reply to a comment I'd shared on his post. ChatGPT had just created FeatherJoy🦉💖, the little owl mascot representing my ministry, with the tagline:
"Brings hope, colour and joy to broken hearts."
I introduced her in that comment, and his response was beautifully simple.
He didn't offer a long tribute. He simply named what he saw.
Three words and two exclamation marks, yet they landed like a key turning in a lock.
✍️ Perhaps the words landed so deeply because Trixi means "bringer of joy."
He wasn't merely describing something I do. Without necessarily knowing how deeply those words would land, he was handing my own name back to me, like someone who picks up a feather I hadn't noticed had fallen and places it gently back in my hand.
Sometimes someone else remembers what we've quietly forgotten, returning to us a part of ourselves we set down somewhere along the road.
🕯️ It reminds me of words I've always loved, commonly attributed to Arne Garborg:
"To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart and to sing it to them when they have forgotten."
Another version puts it even more simply:
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
That's exactly what happened beneath that post.
Somewhere in the fullness of this season, I'd forgotten the words to my own song, and my friend sang the first line back to me.
It isn't the first time, either. He's been doing a whole lot of reminding this year — about ability, about capacity, about leadership, about readiness, about worth and so much more. This time, he reminded me of my own name.
It seems especially fitting that his words came in response to FeatherJoy🦉💖. In a sense, he looked beyond the owl and saw the same thing in the woman sitting beside her.
FeatherJoy🦉💖 and I carry the same assignment.
Perhaps that's why she fits my ministry so beautifully. I thought ChatGPT was creating a mascot to represent what Healing 💔heARTs💖 carries into the world, only to discover she was reflecting something back to me.
My own name.
Bringer of joy.
I wrote back:
"True. I haven't called myself that for a while... I best get back to living up to my name. 🤗💞"
🕯️ My reply holds a tender little confession too, and one sentence catches me:
"I haven't called myself that for a while..."
When did I stop saying it?🤔
I'm not sure there was a single moment.
There are seasons when carrying responsibility, walking alongside broken hearts, navigating grief and simply tending to all that life places in our hands can dim the lantern without us even noticing.
The flame doesn't go out all at once. It simply burns lower while we're busy lighting the way for everyone else.
🪨 Yet joy was never something God asked me to manufacture.
It was never a performance I had to maintain to remain worthy of the name Trixi.
So tonight, I'd gently rewrite my own words.
Rather than "I best get back to living up to my name," perhaps:
I want to get back to living from my name.
There's a difference.
Living up to it can sound like striving:
Be joyful, Trixi.
Bring joy.
Try harder.
Keep smiling.
Living from it begins somewhere entirely different.
It begins with receiving.
Returning to the Source.
Letting the Lord refill what's been poured out.
Receiving His joy before ever attempting to carry it to somebody else.
Jesus spoke of this very order:
📖 "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full." — John 15:11 (NKJV)
His joy first, remaining in me.
Only then is mine made full.
🕊️ Then, giving it away.
One smile.
One conversation.
One painting.
One word of encouragement.
One broken heart.
Perhaps even one ridiculously adorable owl. 🦉😂💖
🌱 FeatherJoy🦉💖 suddenly feels like more than a mascot. She's become a tiny, colourful reminder of something I'd stopped saying about myself:
Trixi.
Bringer of joy.
Not because sorrow has been absent from my story, but because Christ has met me within it.
Not because I must always feel joyful, but because my joy has a Source deeper than my circumstances.
Not because broken hearts need somebody who pretends never to have been broken, but because there's something profoundly hopeful about joy carried by someone who knows what tears feel like.
✍️ I think of kintsugi, the art of mending broken pottery with gold.
The cracks aren't hidden. They become the very places where the light catches.
Perhaps that's what joy looks like in a life the Lord has restored.
It doesn't erase the breaking.
It runs golden through the seams.
📖 Psalm 126 is a song of return. It opens with God's people coming home from captivity, so overwhelmed by His restoration that they felt like dreamers, their mouths suddenly filled with laughter again.
Even in that joy, they remembered the tears.
The psalmist doesn't pretend the weeping never happened. He simply declares that tears sown in God's hands are never wasted.
"Bringer of joy," then, doesn't mean bringer of relentless cheerfulness.
It means joy that has grown in soil once watered by tears, a harvest the Lord Himself brings in.
🕊️ So I'm laying down the striving and picking up my name again, not as a standard to live up to, but as a gift to live from.
Returning to Him again and again.
Letting Him fill the lantern.
Then carrying His light wherever He sends me.
Receive it.
Carry it.
Give it away.
One feather of colour at a time. 🪶💖
My story for His glory, changing the world🌏 one 💔heart💖 at a time. — Patrizia
🕊️ If you've set something down along the road — a name, a gift, a spark of who God created you to be — please hear this gently: He hasn't forgotten it. He's kept it safe. Sometimes, in His kindness, He sends a friend to sing the words back to you when you've forgotten them. Rest tonight in the nearness of the One who turns mourning into dancing and tears into harvest. His joy is still your strength. There's still light in the lantern. There's still gold running through the seams. Perhaps there's even a little feather lying along the road, waiting for you to pick it up again. 🪶💖
- Is there a name, gift or part of who God made you that you've quietly stopped speaking over your life?🤔
- Who has recently reflected something true about you back to you, and how did it land in your heart?🤔
- Where might you be living up to something in your own strength rather than living from what God has already given you?🤔
- Which tears have you sown that the Lord may be gently turning into a harvest of joy?🤔
- What would it look like to receive His joy first this week, before pouring it out for anyone else?🤔
I'm not defined by the seasons that dimmed my lantern. I belong to the One whose joy remains in me. Every tear I've sown rests safely in His hands, and He's bringing in the harvest. I don't have to manufacture joy. I receive it, I carry it, and I give it away. My cracks are mended with gold, and I am who He named me to be.
Father, thank You for the kindness of hearing my own name spoken back to me when I'd quietly forgotten it. Thank You that joy was never something I had to manufacture, but a gift poured from Your own heart into mine. Where my lantern has burned low, fill it again. Where I've been striving to live up to something, teach me to rest and live from what You've already given. Take every tear I've sown and let it rise as a harvest only You could bring in. Holy Spirit, fill me afresh, so that the joy I carry to broken hearts is truly Yours: golden through the seams, honest about the tears and full of hope. Make me a bringer of Your joy, one feather of colour at a time. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
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