This or That?

For those who've been wondering about the photoshoot photos? 🤔

Honestly, I still prefer to be on the other side of the camera. Sitting down on the other side of the camera, anticipating the photoshoot, left me feeling quite awkward. I'm usually the one taking the photos and am quite happy having it that way. So much so that in 2007, after Oma Else died and I had a conversation with my cousin whom I hadn't seen in 34 years, I couldn't provide him with a recent photo of me because I had none.

I've become more intentional about doing these things, and I'm growing more confident. Yet I'm still uncomfortable with dressing up, makeup, and posing, but I'm celebrating small victories and trusting God's plan to help me as I learn to fully embrace my femininity.
I'm reminded again of Sandra's word to me during prayer ministry on 4 June 2020. Now that it's mostly checked off, I'm still working on that last point, which is the hardest for someone who prefers to hide.

The Lord wants you to invest in you personally. You're not a waste of time, money & effort.
What would that look like?

Take time to discover what fills your creative well. ✔️
New haircut?✔️
New dress?✔️I had to invest in a whole new wardrobe because I didn't own any dresses.
Take the time & money you      need for qualifications?✔️
How can l express the beauty of ME?"

I've come a long way... BUT God's not finished with me yet.
I constantly have to remind myself it's a process, not a race or instant fix... next week, I have to add heels 👠 for a gala dinner 🍽 😏💃